I'm tired.

I WANNA BLOG!!!!! *throws tantrum* BUT..I have nothing to blog about..Cause my life is private. I love it that way. :)

Read stories about the unruliness of our Malaysian government, got so pissed off until I pissed other people off with my frustrations. Haha!

I'm still going crazy over which car I want to buy!! == Volvo S40, Smart ForFour, Honda City, Suzuki Swift. I might not even get any of the cars and even settle down for a small car. But there is nothing wrong with dreaming right? Dreaming big will determine how much of an achiever you want to become. But obviously be realistic.

Just came back from Mid Valley. Boring! Chucked myself into a corner in Borders and read books after books after books. Then fell asleep. Stupid me. Good thing phone and wallet not stolen. Zzzzz.

Went out with the bunch to 5 shopping malls in a day. Crazy. But I lasted. Had enough energy to entertain Fatt Mou Yin too! XD

I really don't know where I'm getting at. But yea, that's about it to summarize everything up about what happened to me recently.

OHHHHHhhhhh, I met Sherril today!!!! OMGOSH!!!! Such a pleasant surprise to meet her today. HAHAHA!!

Stupid Holiday

I know I keep turning to my blog when I'm a bit upset or something. Haha. Don't judge me. Anyways, I don't have friends that play pool with me nowadays! == I need a game of POOL!!! I need company to play pool with me!!! On another note, Dave Chappelle has been keeping me company for a day. Also with Invisible Man in my hand, I'm booked for quite a read up. That classic isn't bad. Makes you imagine a lot. Just wondered why the movie had to screw the novel's reputation up.

My world revolves around you.

of worrying about the future.

I find pool most fun when I'm depressed. I guess its because I get my head out of thinking. But still, I suck at pool. Loving the game though. I look at my friends now and admire those who really went on to pursue their dreams. Not that I can't, I just wouldn't dare to. What if the whole 3 to 6 years spent on getting your degree end up in pieces just cause you couldn't get the job you wanted for your degree? Like loads of people, they study one thing, they end up in another. I sometimes look at my friends and end up jealous. But at least, they are taking a huge and brave step into their future. A so called glory in the making?

I aspire to be a car designer or car physicist. It does sound a bit cliche, but looking from another retrospective, it isn't all that good. I would have to be overseas, I'd have to fight my way through the tough competition, I might be with meager pay? It goes on and on. But, its my dream job. My parents didn't agree saying I may not succeed. Thinking rationally, it is a bit impossible to achieve. Sigh, I'm on a crossroad. A big one. My future.

I remember those words I first saw. 'If you love your work, you'll never work a day in your life.' Sounds so true but somehow, not many follow this principle. I might be one of the many though. Sigh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Accomplished!

Today was well, accomplished. It takes a five year relationship between your friends and you to get such workmanship, such sacrifice, such a big event from you. I mean this lot, Kee Yean, Lay San, Vivia, Sze Mei, Ho Vien, Han Boon, Guo Cong. And most of all, this lot. Cause they're not even part of this union and still gave in so much of effort. Shao Jiann, Zheng Yi, Boon Kit, Jhun Xiong. XD

Thank you so much for a five year friendship. This just shows who we are to each other even though we talk bad about each other at times.

I feel EXHAUSTED!!!!!!!!!! Should I or should I not go tomorrow?

Okay, I have to post this up. HAHA!! Sorry Jenna. Respect for you!!!

Jenna: Oooooooooi *nudges*

Joshua: yeaps???

Jenna: nothing

Joshua: zzzzz.. Say la.

Jenna: Haha, what's your take on an ideal girlfriend?

Joshua: huh? Why ask me? So random la you

Jenna: duhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.... So so??

Joshua: haha!! I know its about him la.

then bla bla bla.. Till this part.

Jenna: I really respect certain boys nowadays la. You're one of them.

Joshua: *awwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwww*

Jenna: Hehe. Serious.

Joshua: *awwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwww*

Joshua: why'd you say that anyways?

Jenna: Cause good guys are those who always let their girlfriends have their ways.

Joshua: huh? How'd you know I'll be a good bf? I never tell you anything.

Jenna: See your face also know la.

Joshua: You're random.

Jenna: duhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!

Joshua: So you respect me? Why treat me so good now?

Jenna: Cause he is one of them too.

Joshua: HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAAH!!! So gonna post this up.

Jenna: Noooooooooooooooooooooooooooo!!!!!!!!!

Sorry Jenna. : P Thanks for the compliment even tho I don't think its entirely true. Made me smile from cheek to cheek d.

I'm sunburnt!

I love my new design!

Its been 6 days since I came back from camp. Feeling empty still. Sighs.

I am sad for reasons that are inexplainable. I miss camp. Somehow, I feel something is lost.

I still remember when it was time for me to leave KL, I was sad. Now that I'm back, I'm sad also. What on earth is happening to me? Friends over here seem so far away from me. Instead, I get calls often from my friends at NS. I need my life back. I feel friend-less.

No one is close to me except for my family, 2 of the 3 boys, and my NS friends. Why is it like this?

But I guess I've matured. Yes, I did.

NS

Im back for a good 6 days and Im off to camp again. In Lahad Datu for now. Boring seriously. I mean, very relaxed. Till there is nothing to do at all. No interesting places, no interesting happenings, no nothing.


6 DAYS!!!

Sigh..


5 more weeks and I'll be flying back. NS isn't bad and also isn't nice. In theory, NS is loads of fun. Teachers are great, activities are slightly better than mediocre, and the bond with friends are nice. One thing that destroys the fun in camp is the disrespect that the non malays get. 1 Malaysia? Im not entirely sure. Activities like flying fox, rafting, kayaking, the malays never think of us chinese and push us away from our line. They cut our line during eating time right in front of us and all sorts of other things. I'm not blaming them or anything. I just want to see some respect. 1 Malaysia, to realize this dream, first you have to change the malays. SERIOUSLY!!!



Oh yea, I realized that in NS, the people who has most fun are the girls apparently. Maybe because the racism is less. I don't know.



I'm bald

MY WORKING PERIOD HAS JUST FINISHED!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Crazy. Was thinking how'd I spend my working period for the last two months and now I'm missing them. Awwwww. Great bunch of guys. But to give me the chance to relive the experience. No.

God, here's hoping I'd pass.

I'll be able to blog a lot more then. Stay tuned.

GONG HEI FAT CHOI

8 MORE DAYS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Why am i indulging myself in mood swings? Sighs.. Why the heck am I feeling this way? I've learnt the hard way on how to not be taken advantage of. That is not to offer yourself for help. Its always cause this world isn't fair, isn't true, is full of lies, cares about themselves and none for others. When you offer yourself to help. The world destroys you. It steals everything you've got and isn't even satisfied and when the help you gave doesn't help much, they blame you for the problem. I hate what is happening now. The ever changing world. Am I being too naive to offer help?

Have you ever approached a lame person who takes out his bowl of coins and buys food to eat and offer him your portion of food? I guess not. Its just cause you're just too full of yourself, also because you enjoy your food too much till you didn't even notice him. I'm sick of this. When I offer my portion, people look at me. When I don't help, I reckon no one else will give a helping hand either.

Even friends. The people you treasure. They'd take your help and when you're of no use, they'll chug you at the side and bewilder you. What's this world become?

Thinking of helping Haiti? How about the people around you? How about the orphans that linger around the streets? How about a poor family with a down syndromed child? Why look any further when even your own country needs you? I'm not discouraging you to not help Haiti but how about Malaysia? What is this world going to be? If we continue being jerks who are only full of ourselves, I don't think this world would become any better, and greener, any kinder, anymore prosperous. This world is built for self destruction. Sighs. Sometimes not pondering about the world would be so much better.

I'm not even sure about this post. I just feel down and lonely.

-Ghost of York-

Ugly Specs

When you earn more, you tend to spend more. Something I heard and didn't believe and abide-d on this sentence unknowingly.

Spending money is a lot more frequent in my dictionary nowadays.

Oh wells, the purpose of me writting this post is to point out that people wearing those nerdy specs are really lifeless humans.

Firstly, its ugly.

Secondly, you don't wear this purposely. Nerds who wear them unintentionally look cool. But people who wear this intentionally really are ...

Thirdly, you're trend followers. I, apparently a trend setter. Too bad for you.

Fourthly, its really ugly.

Hahahaha!! Nothing else better to write.

As Tall As Lions - The Carousel

Haha!! Nice Working Experience

Yes, I am finally working now. 5 days seemed like a month. Sighs.. For once, I can agree when adults say "Enjoy your school life while you can la!!". We teens won't grasp its meaning until we reach the working age of our lives and that is when we regret. Work definitely is tiring, isn't as fun as it may seem, loads of torture in a sense of energy draining and the lots. But still, it is a good experience and definitely unforgettable la. But if given 2nd chance to relive it, NO THANKS.

Oh yea, there was this chinese man in the store who went like this to a colleague of mine.

Man: Asamolokum, dis item bai 1 no discaung ar?

Colleague: Sir, I'm not malay. Anyway, yea, 1 item no discount, 2 or more, you'll enjoy 15% discount so buying more would benefit you.

Man: *discusses with woman beside in Hokkien* Ah, Bad den I wan this 1 onni. Can't give discount meh?

Colleague: Sir, we cannot negotiate the price with you as we are workers of a company only. We do not own the shop. But if you insist, you can join our membership and you can get 10% discount.

Man: How get the membership cad?

Colleague: You have to spend at least 300rm or more to be entitled to get the membership.

Man: Waaaaaaa!! *discusses with woman again* Nemermine, I just take this onni. I dowan discaung d. Negoshiat oso dowan, i still wan buy this for my gurfen. *gives money and goes off*

It was pretty loony then, but I can't describe it as funny as it was that time, I kept laughing when I thought about the first word he exclaimed, "Asamolokum". Oh yea, it is not exactly what I typed that happened la, he just spoke pretty funnily and my colleague kept toying with him. Since I was beside them, I kept giggling so when the man left, he stared at me. Haha!! Working stories, I have my share of funny working experience now.

MK Ultra - Muse