I guess SOMETIMES questions come out in OUR head asking "Where are You, God?" or "Why can't You answer me?" or even "I can't hear You, God". Well, that 'sometimes' just arrived a few weeks before in my head. I was asking God so many questions. Questioning Him about life. Questioning Him whether He is real even though I know He is. Its just that I had to ask Him these questions. Well, the reason of me taking leave from being a worship coordinator is because I forgot the reason of me serving Him. Most importantly, who am I doing this for? Whilst asking these questions, I slowly realized that I was far away from Him. So far that I can't describe.
Well, 2 weeks ago, I was in YC. That particular day, they were filming something about the solar system. That really got me into thinking. You see, the movie was about how big the universe was. Imagine the speed of light is 186 000 miles per second. What about a light year? 186,000 mi/sec x 60 sec/min x 60 min/hr x 24 hr/day x 365 days/yr=? Got the answer? 5865696000000 miles. Crazy? That's not even the size of the universe for your information. The size of the universe is still not found by scientists yet. So far the observable universe is now thought to be a sphere with a radius of 13.7 BILLION LIGHT YEARS. Volume = 4/3 times 3.14 times r cubed = 4.19times 2571 times 10^27 = 10,774 times 10^27 = about 10^31 cubic lightyears.
*(Using 10^79 for the total number of atoms gives 10^ 48 atoms percubic light year. There are about 10 trillion kilometers in one lightyear = 10^13. A cubic light year is 10^39 cubic kilometers; so thereare 10^9 (one billion) atoms per cubic kilometer on the average. Ifthat is correct there are lots more cubic kilometers with only a fewhundred atoms to make up for the very few cubic kilometers withbillions of billions of atoms such as the cubic kilometer just belowour feet. The billion billion = 10^18 is a wild guess.)
In short (guess you guys won't read it.), the universe is GIAMUNGOUS(Super huge!!!!)!! And the Milky Way which is our solar system FYI is just a speck in the universe and the universe is like the size of His palm. Then I thought about myself, being SO SMALL, does God really care for me? I realized I am not so important after all, I mean this is God's creation, the whole universe, then am I improtant?
Then slowly, I got the answer. I may not know why I am so important to Him even though I was told that its because I am His creation (Don't quite buy it.), but I got proof of being important. Guess what proof I got? God sent His Son to die for us all. Does that catch you there? Well, imagine this scenario. You have a son or a daughter and you sacrifice him/her for your lets say plasticine doll? How about for your relatives? You wouldn't sacrifice your child for even your relatives right?? Crazy huh?? But God even knows us by name. C'mon, is my God that caring you may wonder but trust me, he's the best. He's somebody that can be trusted amd somebody that hears your complain and many more. Well, guess I'm going back on track with Him but I'm still moving towards Him. I hope you guys can pray for me. Thanks Jovan and Joey for words of encouragement. Really appreciate it. =)
