Why am i indulging myself in mood swings? Sighs.. Why the heck am I feeling this way? I've learnt the hard way on how to not be taken advantage of. That is not to offer yourself for help. Its always cause this world isn't fair, isn't true, is full of lies, cares about themselves and none for others. When you offer yourself to help. The world destroys you. It steals everything you've got and isn't even satisfied and when the help you gave doesn't help much, they blame you for the problem. I hate what is happening now. The ever changing world. Am I being too naive to offer help?

Have you ever approached a lame person who takes out his bowl of coins and buys food to eat and offer him your portion of food? I guess not. Its just cause you're just too full of yourself, also because you enjoy your food too much till you didn't even notice him. I'm sick of this. When I offer my portion, people look at me. When I don't help, I reckon no one else will give a helping hand either.

Even friends. The people you treasure. They'd take your help and when you're of no use, they'll chug you at the side and bewilder you. What's this world become?

Thinking of helping Haiti? How about the people around you? How about the orphans that linger around the streets? How about a poor family with a down syndromed child? Why look any further when even your own country needs you? I'm not discouraging you to not help Haiti but how about Malaysia? What is this world going to be? If we continue being jerks who are only full of ourselves, I don't think this world would become any better, and greener, any kinder, anymore prosperous. This world is built for self destruction. Sighs. Sometimes not pondering about the world would be so much better.

I'm not even sure about this post. I just feel down and lonely.

-Ghost of York-

Ugly Specs

When you earn more, you tend to spend more. Something I heard and didn't believe and abide-d on this sentence unknowingly.

Spending money is a lot more frequent in my dictionary nowadays.

Oh wells, the purpose of me writting this post is to point out that people wearing those nerdy specs are really lifeless humans.

Firstly, its ugly.

Secondly, you don't wear this purposely. Nerds who wear them unintentionally look cool. But people who wear this intentionally really are ...

Thirdly, you're trend followers. I, apparently a trend setter. Too bad for you.

Fourthly, its really ugly.

Hahahaha!! Nothing else better to write.

As Tall As Lions - The Carousel

Haha!! Nice Working Experience

Yes, I am finally working now. 5 days seemed like a month. Sighs.. For once, I can agree when adults say "Enjoy your school life while you can la!!". We teens won't grasp its meaning until we reach the working age of our lives and that is when we regret. Work definitely is tiring, isn't as fun as it may seem, loads of torture in a sense of energy draining and the lots. But still, it is a good experience and definitely unforgettable la. But if given 2nd chance to relive it, NO THANKS.

Oh yea, there was this chinese man in the store who went like this to a colleague of mine.

Man: Asamolokum, dis item bai 1 no discaung ar?

Colleague: Sir, I'm not malay. Anyway, yea, 1 item no discount, 2 or more, you'll enjoy 15% discount so buying more would benefit you.

Man: *discusses with woman beside in Hokkien* Ah, Bad den I wan this 1 onni. Can't give discount meh?

Colleague: Sir, we cannot negotiate the price with you as we are workers of a company only. We do not own the shop. But if you insist, you can join our membership and you can get 10% discount.

Man: How get the membership cad?

Colleague: You have to spend at least 300rm or more to be entitled to get the membership.

Man: Waaaaaaa!! *discusses with woman again* Nemermine, I just take this onni. I dowan discaung d. Negoshiat oso dowan, i still wan buy this for my gurfen. *gives money and goes off*

It was pretty loony then, but I can't describe it as funny as it was that time, I kept laughing when I thought about the first word he exclaimed, "Asamolokum". Oh yea, it is not exactly what I typed that happened la, he just spoke pretty funnily and my colleague kept toying with him. Since I was beside them, I kept giggling so when the man left, he stared at me. Haha!! Working stories, I have my share of funny working experience now.

MK Ultra - Muse

Looking back

Sigh, I'm gonna work. Just for the experience since I don't know how it is to work. But looking back, I realize that there will be no more freedom for me for these two months. Sighs. Sooooooo, firstly, I'm gonna work to fill time, I'm learning driving, looking at Taylors to further my studies. Sigh. I know my blog is dead but I'm just not in the mood to update it. I update it to my likings so don't hope for updates that often as before.

Looking back, my life wasn't as smooth as I wanted it to be. Wasn't all nice to look at. But if given the chance to reverse time and to relive the moment, I am thoroughly happy with my life from the past, present and the coming future. Why am I typing like some lifeless emo you ask? Don't ask. I don't even know why.

But still, Merry (belated) Christmas and a Happy New Year.

Count me in - Leeland

Lalalalala.. Random post.

Yeap, I'm entering the phase of driving.. xD Someday, I can fetch you. Yeap, Jon, KL.. We can all meet up easily next time. Hahahaha!! The fun we can have.. Muahahahaha. And you.. I can go out with you so much easier.. I'm GONNA DRIVE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Ending of A Chapter in Life

Guess for most of us, it'll be our last paper in SPM huh? After that and a new chapter starts in our life where we meet new friends, acquaintance, situations, tough times, funny happenings and the lot. Instead of rejoicing, I'm not sure why I'm feeling a little heavy on my heart.. Sigh.....

The classes I've skipped with my friends all seem worth while, all the long hair and panjang kuku, ganggu guru dalam kelas, menyanyi semasa guru sedang mengajar, getting surat amaran... I'm missing it already. xD For those people close to me, I really appreciate you. You guys know who you are. You guys always played a role in shaping me to whom I'll be, what I'll aim, and so on and I hope I do play a role in your lives too. Sometimes looking back makes me wonder just how did I live life with you guys. Something that seemed impossible to even think about was just done for five years in a blink of an eye. Crazy people!!

For my other classmates, it has been a wildride just being in class with you. Being a clown, someone annoying, someone offensive, I'm sincerely sorry. It just wouldn't be me if I wasn't myself, right? Haha.. Thanks for lending a helping hand when I was caught by teacher, thanks for borrowing me a book when I didn't have one, thanks for letting me copy your work when teacher was chasing me everywhere. Heheh. There is this statement where Jesus said where you do something for the littlest of my creations, you're doing it for me. (Not exact) But you get my point. All I'm trying to say is, you've been a blessing to me. I hope I do too.. Or did I? LOL

For the lot of people I sit with in the mornings. Entertaining bunch. Going through loopholes in tough situations, their expertise. But even thought at times all of us argue, do not keep it in your hearts. Reconciliation is the almost the best medicine.(since laughter is)

For very very close friends. Its been nice knowing you all for five years. The pain I made you guys go through (and you to me too XD), I'm sincerely sorry. The things we went through together, the pain we got through, the happy times, the confusing times, the emo times, the avoiding times, everything I cherish it to the core of my heart. I cannot express just how grateful I am to even go through all these with you. Not even a thank you is abundant enough to cover all the memories you guys have supplied me. I'm forever grateful.

To teachers who read this. Yea, I know you do. I'm sorry for the posts I posted about you all, I'm sorry for making life tough for you. HAhAHHAHA!! I know I have not been a very good model student as you wished for. But you'll see me rise as someone that will make our school proud. I am sorry for all the harsh treatments I gave you, the cold shoulders i showed, the back replies when you scold me. Heheh!!

I guess I've finished talking gibberish and will look on to my future now onwards. Even though I may not be able to see you guys as often as now, next time, please do contact each other. A time for cc, shopping with ladies, parties, Sunway, etc., don't forget to invite me. Its been nice knowing you all and live life surrounded by you guys. Please make good use of your future and be successful in whatever you do. Don't forget each other yea?

Finally, I'll miss you guys..

Definitely.

Happy Birthday Yin

Today is his birthday!!!!!!!!!!!! Happy birthday yo!!!! xD