Accomplished!

Today was well, accomplished. It takes a five year relationship between your friends and you to get such workmanship, such sacrifice, such a big event from you. I mean this lot, Kee Yean, Lay San, Vivia, Sze Mei, Ho Vien, Han Boon, Guo Cong. And most of all, this lot. Cause they're not even part of this union and still gave in so much of effort. Shao Jiann, Zheng Yi, Boon Kit, Jhun Xiong. XD

Thank you so much for a five year friendship. This just shows who we are to each other even though we talk bad about each other at times.

I feel EXHAUSTED!!!!!!!!!! Should I or should I not go tomorrow?

Okay, I have to post this up. HAHA!! Sorry Jenna. Respect for you!!!

Jenna: Oooooooooi *nudges*

Joshua: yeaps???

Jenna: nothing

Joshua: zzzzz.. Say la.

Jenna: Haha, what's your take on an ideal girlfriend?

Joshua: huh? Why ask me? So random la you

Jenna: duhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.... So so??

Joshua: haha!! I know its about him la.

then bla bla bla.. Till this part.

Jenna: I really respect certain boys nowadays la. You're one of them.

Joshua: *awwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwww*

Jenna: Hehe. Serious.

Joshua: *awwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwww*

Joshua: why'd you say that anyways?

Jenna: Cause good guys are those who always let their girlfriends have their ways.

Joshua: huh? How'd you know I'll be a good bf? I never tell you anything.

Jenna: See your face also know la.

Joshua: You're random.

Jenna: duhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!

Joshua: So you respect me? Why treat me so good now?

Jenna: Cause he is one of them too.

Joshua: HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAAH!!! So gonna post this up.

Jenna: Noooooooooooooooooooooooooooo!!!!!!!!!

Sorry Jenna. : P Thanks for the compliment even tho I don't think its entirely true. Made me smile from cheek to cheek d.

I'm sunburnt!

I love my new design!

Its been 6 days since I came back from camp. Feeling empty still. Sighs.

I am sad for reasons that are inexplainable. I miss camp. Somehow, I feel something is lost.

I still remember when it was time for me to leave KL, I was sad. Now that I'm back, I'm sad also. What on earth is happening to me? Friends over here seem so far away from me. Instead, I get calls often from my friends at NS. I need my life back. I feel friend-less.

No one is close to me except for my family, 2 of the 3 boys, and my NS friends. Why is it like this?

But I guess I've matured. Yes, I did.

NS

Im back for a good 6 days and Im off to camp again. In Lahad Datu for now. Boring seriously. I mean, very relaxed. Till there is nothing to do at all. No interesting places, no interesting happenings, no nothing.


6 DAYS!!!

Sigh..


5 more weeks and I'll be flying back. NS isn't bad and also isn't nice. In theory, NS is loads of fun. Teachers are great, activities are slightly better than mediocre, and the bond with friends are nice. One thing that destroys the fun in camp is the disrespect that the non malays get. 1 Malaysia? Im not entirely sure. Activities like flying fox, rafting, kayaking, the malays never think of us chinese and push us away from our line. They cut our line during eating time right in front of us and all sorts of other things. I'm not blaming them or anything. I just want to see some respect. 1 Malaysia, to realize this dream, first you have to change the malays. SERIOUSLY!!!



Oh yea, I realized that in NS, the people who has most fun are the girls apparently. Maybe because the racism is less. I don't know.



I'm bald

MY WORKING PERIOD HAS JUST FINISHED!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Crazy. Was thinking how'd I spend my working period for the last two months and now I'm missing them. Awwwww. Great bunch of guys. But to give me the chance to relive the experience. No.

God, here's hoping I'd pass.

I'll be able to blog a lot more then. Stay tuned.

GONG HEI FAT CHOI

8 MORE DAYS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Why am i indulging myself in mood swings? Sighs.. Why the heck am I feeling this way? I've learnt the hard way on how to not be taken advantage of. That is not to offer yourself for help. Its always cause this world isn't fair, isn't true, is full of lies, cares about themselves and none for others. When you offer yourself to help. The world destroys you. It steals everything you've got and isn't even satisfied and when the help you gave doesn't help much, they blame you for the problem. I hate what is happening now. The ever changing world. Am I being too naive to offer help?

Have you ever approached a lame person who takes out his bowl of coins and buys food to eat and offer him your portion of food? I guess not. Its just cause you're just too full of yourself, also because you enjoy your food too much till you didn't even notice him. I'm sick of this. When I offer my portion, people look at me. When I don't help, I reckon no one else will give a helping hand either.

Even friends. The people you treasure. They'd take your help and when you're of no use, they'll chug you at the side and bewilder you. What's this world become?

Thinking of helping Haiti? How about the people around you? How about the orphans that linger around the streets? How about a poor family with a down syndromed child? Why look any further when even your own country needs you? I'm not discouraging you to not help Haiti but how about Malaysia? What is this world going to be? If we continue being jerks who are only full of ourselves, I don't think this world would become any better, and greener, any kinder, anymore prosperous. This world is built for self destruction. Sighs. Sometimes not pondering about the world would be so much better.

I'm not even sure about this post. I just feel down and lonely.

-Ghost of York-