I'm tired.

I WANNA BLOG!!!!! *throws tantrum* BUT..I have nothing to blog about..Cause my life is private. I love it that way. :)

Read stories about the unruliness of our Malaysian government, got so pissed off until I pissed other people off with my frustrations. Haha!

I'm still going crazy over which car I want to buy!! == Volvo S40, Smart ForFour, Honda City, Suzuki Swift. I might not even get any of the cars and even settle down for a small car. But there is nothing wrong with dreaming right? Dreaming big will determine how much of an achiever you want to become. But obviously be realistic.

Just came back from Mid Valley. Boring! Chucked myself into a corner in Borders and read books after books after books. Then fell asleep. Stupid me. Good thing phone and wallet not stolen. Zzzzz.

Went out with the bunch to 5 shopping malls in a day. Crazy. But I lasted. Had enough energy to entertain Fatt Mou Yin too! XD

I really don't know where I'm getting at. But yea, that's about it to summarize everything up about what happened to me recently.

OHHHHHhhhhh, I met Sherril today!!!! OMGOSH!!!! Such a pleasant surprise to meet her today. HAHAHA!!

Stupid Holiday

I know I keep turning to my blog when I'm a bit upset or something. Haha. Don't judge me. Anyways, I don't have friends that play pool with me nowadays! == I need a game of POOL!!! I need company to play pool with me!!! On another note, Dave Chappelle has been keeping me company for a day. Also with Invisible Man in my hand, I'm booked for quite a read up. That classic isn't bad. Makes you imagine a lot. Just wondered why the movie had to screw the novel's reputation up.

My world revolves around you.

of worrying about the future.

I find pool most fun when I'm depressed. I guess its because I get my head out of thinking. But still, I suck at pool. Loving the game though. I look at my friends now and admire those who really went on to pursue their dreams. Not that I can't, I just wouldn't dare to. What if the whole 3 to 6 years spent on getting your degree end up in pieces just cause you couldn't get the job you wanted for your degree? Like loads of people, they study one thing, they end up in another. I sometimes look at my friends and end up jealous. But at least, they are taking a huge and brave step into their future. A so called glory in the making?

I aspire to be a car designer or car physicist. It does sound a bit cliche, but looking from another retrospective, it isn't all that good. I would have to be overseas, I'd have to fight my way through the tough competition, I might be with meager pay? It goes on and on. But, its my dream job. My parents didn't agree saying I may not succeed. Thinking rationally, it is a bit impossible to achieve. Sigh, I'm on a crossroad. A big one. My future.

I remember those words I first saw. 'If you love your work, you'll never work a day in your life.' Sounds so true but somehow, not many follow this principle. I might be one of the many though. Sigh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Accomplished!

Today was well, accomplished. It takes a five year relationship between your friends and you to get such workmanship, such sacrifice, such a big event from you. I mean this lot, Kee Yean, Lay San, Vivia, Sze Mei, Ho Vien, Han Boon, Guo Cong. And most of all, this lot. Cause they're not even part of this union and still gave in so much of effort. Shao Jiann, Zheng Yi, Boon Kit, Jhun Xiong. XD

Thank you so much for a five year friendship. This just shows who we are to each other even though we talk bad about each other at times.

I feel EXHAUSTED!!!!!!!!!! Should I or should I not go tomorrow?

Okay, I have to post this up. HAHA!! Sorry Jenna. Respect for you!!!

Jenna: Oooooooooi *nudges*

Joshua: yeaps???

Jenna: nothing

Joshua: zzzzz.. Say la.

Jenna: Haha, what's your take on an ideal girlfriend?

Joshua: huh? Why ask me? So random la you

Jenna: duhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.... So so??

Joshua: haha!! I know its about him la.

then bla bla bla.. Till this part.

Jenna: I really respect certain boys nowadays la. You're one of them.

Joshua: *awwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwww*

Jenna: Hehe. Serious.

Joshua: *awwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwww*

Joshua: why'd you say that anyways?

Jenna: Cause good guys are those who always let their girlfriends have their ways.

Joshua: huh? How'd you know I'll be a good bf? I never tell you anything.

Jenna: See your face also know la.

Joshua: You're random.

Jenna: duhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!

Joshua: So you respect me? Why treat me so good now?

Jenna: Cause he is one of them too.

Joshua: HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAAH!!! So gonna post this up.

Jenna: Noooooooooooooooooooooooooooo!!!!!!!!!

Sorry Jenna. : P Thanks for the compliment even tho I don't think its entirely true. Made me smile from cheek to cheek d.

I'm sunburnt!

I love my new design!

Its been 6 days since I came back from camp. Feeling empty still. Sighs.

I am sad for reasons that are inexplainable. I miss camp. Somehow, I feel something is lost.

I still remember when it was time for me to leave KL, I was sad. Now that I'm back, I'm sad also. What on earth is happening to me? Friends over here seem so far away from me. Instead, I get calls often from my friends at NS. I need my life back. I feel friend-less.

No one is close to me except for my family, 2 of the 3 boys, and my NS friends. Why is it like this?

But I guess I've matured. Yes, I did.